choices.

let it be known that today I am choosing to base
my life
my decisions
my heart
my feelings
my words
my thoughts
my hope
my fears
my insecurities
on the foundation of who God is.

I am reminded that the only constant of this life is the character of the Uncreated One.
sometimes He chooses not to speak even.
so His voice may not always interrupt me
but that's when His character & what I know to be true of Him
b u r s t s  f o r t h .

so today, it's me and you Jesus.
if I don't even hear you...
I will act upon the truth of what I know you to be.
[ I don't want communion with you because of your guidance. I want You. ]

I choose YOU instead of fear.
I choose YOU instead of myself.
I choose YOU instead of them.
I choose YOU instead of this world.
I choose YOU instead of the enemy.
I choose YOU instead of momentary gratification.
I choose YOU and this life of complete surrender.
this life of laying down myself & my desires at your feet & learning to walk away instead of praying you give them back.

this life of looking to the skies.

eagerly awaiting the Savior from the city of which I'm a citizen.

as for now,
until that day...
I choose YOU.